I have noticed a stillness in my head. Like a pool of calm water. Clear. Sharp. No fog. I’m feeling alive.
Today we’re headed to the mountains. We’re getting into character, listening to Fleet Foxes. Dressed in a flowery skirt, and skinny jeans. Wearing odd gloves. Stopping for snacks before leaving the city. We’re being outdoorsy. It isn’t like us.
I remember watching Fleet Foxes from the top of a hill, at a music festival in Barcelona. The sun on my back. Wine in my cup that I’d smuggled in past security. My love beside me. At that moment, I was present. I’ll remember it always.
And here we are on a new adventure, not following any rules, not knowing where we are going. Meandering.
Passing by stone walls. Spotting birds of prey. Climbing over wooden stiles. Breaking the ice with our shoes as we follow the path of the river, upstream. Enjoying our own company, the three of us. Admiring the landscape and each other. Chatting about albums from 2005 and walking through burnt out fires.
This popped onto my phone screen:
‘Now is a good time to be present.
Now too.
And now.’